The beginning

Ahhh....this crazy! My life is a constant flow of work, family, and disapointment. Its weird when you feel, like you have your whole life planned out, and then nothing. Nothing happens the way it is supposed to. Nothing happens in the order you planned and definitely nothing comes easily. I am mostly starting this blog, so I can express my feelings, trials and tribulations. I am a 21 year old, who changes my mind too much, and makes important decisions much too late. I wanted to be a teacher my whole life, but once I got into college it changed. Kids became much to bratty and wild. So I changed to nursing, but that is still not good enough for my family. Sometimes I just want to pull my hair out. So currently I am working 35 plus hours a week, a crappy, much to life consuming job, that needless to say, I cant stand. So here I am the week of Christmas, feeling sorry for myself, when I have so much to be thankful for. Exhibit A: My family, yes we fight, yes we yell, and of course we rarely can stand to be in the same room for long. But they are mine, and I really would not change them for anything. Exhibit B: My dreadful job, yes it is my enemy but at least I have one, especially in this economy, but god I cannot wait to be done with school and out of there. Exhibit C: My other family in Michigan, my little sunshine my niece Addison and nephew Brady. I miss them terribly and really dont see them so often, but love for them is undeniably strong, almost painful. And it kills me to not visit them monthly, but life is expensive and so is traveling. So for now I will withhold the rest of my word vomit, and save some for later.